someone said~ you don’t end up doing nothing unless you’re in a coma…… — ɪɴɴᴇʀ ꜰᴇᴇʟɪɴɢꜱ💖 — TG.ME

someone said~ you don’t end up doing nothing unless you’re in a coma… so don’t be a cry baby. and i~ i hear it i hear it again i hear it again and again and something in me~ something in me resists something in me resists softly something in me resists softly but does not leave because i~ i say i do nothing i say i do nothing often i say i do nothing and believe it but then~ but then time moves but then time moves anyway but then time moves anyway without asking me so i~ i am i am here i am here still and if i~ if i am here if i am here still if i am here still breathing then i~ i am doing i am doing something i am doing something always even when i~ even when i stop even when i stop trying even when i stop trying to try my mind~ my mind thinks my mind thinks endlessly my mind thinks endlessly without permission my body~ my body stays my body stays present my body stays present in time so i~ i am not nothing i am not nothing ever i am not nothing even in stillness then what~ then what is nothing then what is nothing that i claim then what is nothing that i hide behind maybe~ maybe nothing is not empty maybe nothing is not empty at all maybe nothing is something i refuse to name because i~ i avoid i avoid quietly i avoid quietly and call it nothing i delay~ i delay softly i delay softly and repeatedly i delay softly and repeatedly and pretend it disappears but it~ but it stays but it stays inside but it stays inside as unfinished motion so i~ i am choosing i am choosing always i am choosing always even in silence even when i~ even when i don’t decide even when i don’t decide clearly even when i don’t decide clearly at all there is~ there is a direction there is a direction forming there is a direction forming without me noticing and this~ and this is strange and this is strange and unsettling and this is strange and unsettling and quiet because i~ i am not absent i am not absent ever i am not absent even when i disappear from myself unless~ unless i am gone unless i am gone completely unless i am gone completely into nothing and that~ and that is rare and that is rare and distant and that is rare and distant and not this so i~ i cannot escape i cannot escape doing i cannot escape doing something even if i~ even if i refuse even if i refuse meaning even if i refuse meaning itself still~ still something builds still something builds slowly still something builds slowly out of me and i~ i do not see i do not see clearly i do not see clearly what it becomes because i~ i call it nothing i call it nothing daily i call it nothing daily to feel lighter but it~ but it is not nothing but it is not nothing at all but it is not nothing and never was so then~ so then what so then what am i doing so then what am i doing when i say nothing am i~ am i hiding am i hiding from truth am i hiding from truth inside simple words or am i~ or am i afraid or am i afraid to admit or am i afraid to admit that i exist in every moment and if i~ and if i exist and if i exist always and if i exist always through action then this~ then this life then this life is moving then this life is moving whether i see it or not and one day~ and one day i will look and one day i will look back and one day i will look back at all these “nothings” and maybe~ and maybe i will see and maybe i will see clearly and maybe i will see clearly for the first time that i~ i was i was doing i was doing something always