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maybe they were just holding questions.
questions that don’t solve anything… but change the way you see everything.
because the more i sit with this… the more confusing it becomes.
is love patience… or is it courage?
is it waiting… or is it knowing when to walk away?
is it devotion… or is it self-respect?
and is there really a line between them… or do they quietly become each other at some point?
and then the most unsettling question,
if love is this deep, this still, this aware…
then why does so much of what we call love today feel so restless… so loud… so easily broken?
are we loving wrong…
or are we just afraid of loving in a way that asks more from us?
because a love like gauri and shiv is not convenient.
it asks you to sit with yourself.
to become someone who can hold silence without assuming absence.
to trust without constantly checking.
to stay… not because you are afraid to leave, but because you understand why you are there.
and honestly…
how many of us can do that?
this gangaur, i am not celebrating like before.
i am not just watching.
i am listening.
to the songs that now feel like they are saying something i still can’t fully understand…
to the rituals that feel like they are pointing somewhere deeper than themselves…
to the silence between everything… where the real meaning probably lives.
and somewhere in all of this…
i keep coming back to the same thought.
maybe love was never meant to be easy to understand.
maybe it was meant to be experienced slowly… like a story you don’t finish in one sitting.
or maybe…
we have been trying to understand love in ways it was never meant to be understood.
and if that is true…
then what exactly are we searching for when we say we want love?
a person?
a feeling?
or a mirror that shows us everything we are not ready to see yet?
i don’t know.
and maybe that’s the point.
because some questions are not meant to be answered.
they are meant to stay.
to sit with you.
to follow you.
to quietly change you… without ever explaining how.
this gangaur…
i am still not sure what love really is.
but for the first time…
i feel like i am asking the right questions.
or maybe…
just better ones.
or maybe not.
i don’t know.
do you?
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